Dan don't do depression.
Advice is difficult to give and difficult to receive. As is often pointed out to me, you are here to give advice (which is my job) and I make the decisions (is the person provided with advice).
Reading through the thread here, what I have gleaned is you want to farm, and to get there you want to work in UK. You have been applying for jobs with out much luck.
What are the jobs you have applied for? are they matched to your cv?
Who have you spoken to? What questions have you asked? And what have you learnt in this activity?
Have you spoken with your local college, and indeed some out of the area?
Have you joined a YFC club?
Have you joined a local stockman/farmer discussion group?
Have you spoken with your local nfu/cla people?
Have you spoken with Dairyco (at Stoneleigh)?
Have you tried relief work agencies to undertake relief milking?
I think you want to do dairy and milk cows and need to get more skills:
Have you applied for charitable help to get on these training programmes and get the certificates? There is help available through many charities such as your local Agricultural society. There is help also from government training programmes.
The real trouble is to provide targeted information much of what is available varies from area to area. I live and work in Suffolk, but I am aware of what happens in Devon where there is much more help and money for the type of thing you need.
The problem I have in putting forward ideas is the limited information that I have to work with. What you have been up to in the last couple of months?
I checked your information on the FWi site, you have very limited information. You can check me out if you like. However I must provide a stonking great caveat that I seem to have upset some of our friends on the site with my views about agriculture, and they will tell you to steer well clear of Motley.
Fear not if you persevere you will get what you want, you may have to be flexible in what you do though.
Farming is for us, all.